I am not really sure what to do with myself. I have been keeping fairly busy working on bookkeeping for my clients since moving on the boat. I have gotten several new ones who needed a lot of back work, which is super exciting, but now I am all caught up. I don’t really want to get any more clients because I am happy with the amount of money I am making. In fact, I have been thinking that I should let some people go or hire someone to help me if I get anymore clients.
When I am not working on bookkeeping, I am doing laundry, making dinner, cleaning around the boat. You know, being a good housewife…which is utterly foreign to me. I swear I have made more meals since living on the boat than I have the last 11 years of marriage. I was real good at boiling water and heating things up, but now I am actually reading recipes and making things from scratch.
It has been quite fun trying new things and totally different than when I came home from work, exhausted, and tried to make something new. I usually ended up crying because everything takes longer than recipes say and also I didn’t know what half the words in the recipe meant so I would have to look them up. I think people who make recipes really don’t understand how write instructions for someone who doesn’t cook all the time.
Anyway, I have stayed pretty busy and when I haven’t been “Brandy Rocker” (my sister, Ginger, started calling me that) or working on bookkeeping, I have been helping Dan out with projects on the boat. Mostly running to the store to get things, ordering items online, doing research to see how to do something or what product people recommend.
This has been all fine and dandy until Corey joined us. Haha! I don’t mean it in a bad way, but Corey is a much better chef than I am and has been making amazing meals without using a recipe. He has even been doing dishes after making the meal while I sit around and do nothing. He is handier than I am and has been helping Dan a lot more than I could around the boat.
Right after Corey joined us, I had an unexpected trip to Minnesota for 4 days and when I came back I only had 2 days to get a whole bunch of bookkeeping done before my friend came to visit, so I was working non-stop. Then my friend, Chrystal, was here and the boat was a disaster so I tried to get us off the boat and out playing as much as possible but that meant Dan and Corey were back on the boat working…while I was out having fun. I felt really bad about it.
Now, it has been 3 days since Chrystal left and I finished all the bookkeeping that I needed to do 2 days ago so I have been playing a lot of Monopoly on my phone while Dan and Corey fix the boat and Corey makes us meals. I have been completely useless. I imagine that I seem like the laziest person around.
I made a list of things I could do last night. Learn Spanish, workout, make instructional videos for my bookkeeping business, write blog posts (getting that one done! #winning!), and a list of boat projects that I think I can do without any help.
I still feel useless. I told Dan that I felt useless and he started rattling of a list of things to do, which is fine, I can do those things. But, what happens once they are done? They won’t take that long. I guess I am feeling a little bit like I don’t know what to do with my life. What I normally do when I start to feel this way, is I get active in things, but I don’t really want to join the Junior Service League here because I will be leaving in a couple of weeks. I could volunteer somewhere but, again, I won’t be here long. I am feeling a little bit like a sea turtle in the middle of the ocean who is paddling but doesn’t really know why and not really sure how to fix this.